I Stand Alone in All of My Sorrows

Originally Written on December 2, 2014

I stand alone in all of my sorrows

No one would want to see tomorrow

If they understood what I go through

No matter what I do or don’t do

I stand alone even though I did my time

I live for no reason and no rhyme

I am an empty shell wandering lost

Not able to afford or obtain the cost

Alone I am left with no chance of hope

No way to handle it all and cope

I am hoping that one day I do not

Because one day you will not

No more waking up or breathing

Invisible I’m stuck in a heath

That is my life, that is my strife

Already dead, stuck in life

No one knows where I will go

No one knows how I will sow

I can not reap anything but pain

All the people that I’ve slain

In spirit and mostly in vain

As I cause nothing but pain

I do not good for anyone

Not even my loved ones

I am a hopeless body with no chance

Of surviving the easiest dance

Life is against me and I cannot win

The game of life I was thrown in

I want to leave now and end it

So I will no longer be ruin it

I deserve to be six feet under

Instead in a life’s blender

Hope in one hand and shit in the other

Is all I ever had with another

Or even alone in every attempt

I have failed at all attempts

I have burned all the bridges of hope

Without a way to regain the hope

I am better off doing crimes

And I do not deserve your time