My Life is a Fail

I have lots of issues that prevent me from working:

• Medical problems
• Mental problems
• Criminal record
• Can't drive and lack of transportation
• Daughter in daycare is a bad idea (long story) and no one to babysit
• Long gaps in work history
• Terrible work history

Even if I wanted a job and qualified, I still get denied for the above reasons. Even temporary employment agencies deny me.

School is not an option; been there, done that, didn't finish, owe debts and can't get loans to go back. I wouldn't even know what to go for if I did.

Obtaining help has been a problem:

• I always get reported to Children and Youth Services.
• I get denied for criminal record.
• I get denied for lack of income.
• I get denied for lack of severity, even though I tried as I am homeless with a child.
• I am always told there isn't help available even though people with less severe cases get approved.
• I get denied for being a male as well as transgender.

I don't have a normal income

• I already mention jobs.
• I do not get child support.
• I do not get Social Security.
• I have never qualified for unemployment.

Other notes:

• I have bad luck selling things locally.
• I had an internet business for 2 1/2 years and failed.
• I tried making music.
• Catalog and party options don't work since I don't know enough people.
• I don't have start up funds for any selling options, even if I was good at it.
• I don't have any other talents worth trying to make money from.
• I never find any of the survey sites or ad posting sites that actually pay and if I do, would have to pay them to start up.
• Cash paid seasonal jobs like shoveling, raking, etc are not an option.
• I tried funding sites too and that never worked.

Consequences to not solving this:

• I have to have money to support my daughter. This has also been an obstacle in obtaining custody of my other children. I could lose custody of my daughter.
• I need money to get my own place and obtain the privacy and freedom I need. Without privacy and freedom, I suffer mentally every day.
• If I don't get a place to live or money soon, I will lose my stuff in storage.
• Since I don't have a place of my own, I can't work on the ideas for things that are cluttering my mind. Some of which could provide ways for me to make money. I also can't work on them until I have peace of mind that I am not going to end up homeless. Working on these ideas is a full time thing.
• I will never get my surgery if I can't get money.

The only true solutions I have come up with are:

1. Crime
2. Social Security
3. Finding a mate who has money

The problem is that neither of these work.

I keep getting told to keep trying and something will happen. I can't keep trying. I have no options left. If I keep trying the same things over and over, I still won't get anywhere. There is absolutely no point in trying. I don't know where to go or who to turn to. Even if I didn't have custody, I would still face the problem of not being able to take care of myself.

I am suicidal because I can't live, not because I refuse to.